The Truth (for once)
I think i get it now,
looking back at all those pictures of us, all the times we had
the times you said were fun
i was so in love
but now i see i was the one worth leaving, i mean you were right, i barely saw you and you did what you had to do.
you really were everything to me because i made you my everything, you ment so much to me, its like you provided me with everything i needed to live and be happy, i honestly believed in you, you were perfect to me. i still remember the very first word you said to me, the exact spot we met and the first look you gave me. you were always there for me ha even if i didnt want you to be, you never took advantage of me, always thanked me, did so many things that would make the most depressed person, ecstatic. you showed me a world and state of mind i never thought i would experence, you loved me..or so i thought but i dont know anymore. maybe you did so what if you didnt I loved you.
one thing i do know is i was looking back at those pictures of you and i saw something that i’ve never seen before
you never looked happy.
so for everytime i said sorry, hes the last time.
im sorry my love for you was destroyed.
Im on my own now. I know im strong. I have everything i need here with me. so heres the line…i never thought i would say,
I’m letting you go.
formspring
how is it fine?
that’s so fucked up of them
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you’re better of without them.
i think you and cody should have stayed together.-i guess they weren’t friends in the first place. I guess I’m better off without anyone really.
yeah we need to talk about this. i’ve been hearing somethings and its getting ridiculous. someones been talking about you behind your back. reblog please so i can tell you
Pawla
i wanna take this time to say… ahem…{pause for dramatic effect}
PAULA IS MY HERO!
Perfectly unperfect [which i love!]
Amazingly trustworthy
Understanding
Lala! Lovely
A freaking awsome girl who has been through alot and i admire not only how strong she is, but also how strong she stays. She has never judged me, always brought my spirits up [willingly or unwillingly], did a micheal jackson dance just to make me feel better, provided me with hospitality by shoving me under her bed, and has changed and improved 90% of my life. ily and im always here for you, just like you were always there for me;]
im sorry you felt you had to do that
im sorry im in pain
im sorry im heart broken but put yourself in my position
im sorry your still stuck with me
im sorry i still love you
what i was going to say to you…before you told me what you did with her
im sorry for not being there, im sorry you felt alone
when i didnt have the self estseem to ask whats wrong
im sorry you got stuck with a durranged worthless
pathetic un-beautiful cruel person, im sorry
i cant be around always, im sorry saying sorry is the only
thing i can do, but right now im going to change that fact bc
i will fix things this time. im sorry i told everyone else
but you, i didnt think you cared that much, but now i know
you do care about me, and with that i finally see,
you diserve so much better than me. and im sorry it
took me so long too see how wrong i am. no person should
be treated the way i treated you. im sorry i have to tell
you the truth, this is going to hurt me, more then its
going to hurt you, its about time you see though.
so here it goes…move on. you diserve so much better than me, your truly an amazing person,
and you have changed the way i looked at life,
but what have i done for you?
…absolutly nothing. you really need to open your eyes and see,
the incredible person you really are,and see
that all im doing is holding you back from your dreams, so for your sake…. move on your heart diserves so much more credit than you give it.
you know i love you, and i mean it. so heres the upside of this letter
no doors are closing, nothing is lost, and you will find someone and you will live on.
doors have opened, things are going to change for the better,
believe me. by the time you read this, i’ll be gone.
remember, no one can give you time and pay attention
very close attetion to the little things…they just
might lead you to peace.
